Unwanted Desire-Chapter 21

CHAPTER 21

Severus was working in the garden out back. Star was running in the rose garden. "Don't fall on the roses. They are sharp." He warned.

"Can I go into the maze?" She asked.

"For the fifth time, no."

Sirius: *came out n saw Star begging for Sev to let her go to the maze* Aww, c'mon. Let the girl hv a little fun. 'Sides, if u get lost u could always send out a flare spell

"She does not have a wand yet and you know they can not do spells outside of school until they are 17." Severus frowned. "I will not have her lost."

"But Papa..."

"Go to your room." Star frowned and went running to her room, saying under his breath how mean her father was.

"You are a bad influence on her."

Sirius: Am not. Ur just being too uptight. She is a growing girl tht needs to learn how to come out of her own shell. U protect her too much

Severus stood up. "You know why." he frowned. "You would let her run amok." he wiped his hands on his gery pants he was wearing

Sirius: No, I wont. She will soon be my daughter aftr all. There is no way I'll hv her come to harm

"I don't like mazes. Anything can happen in them."

Sirius: *raised a brow* Like wht, pray tell?

"Someone could be in there and rape or kidnap her."

Sirius: *sighs* Snape, this is my estate. No one would dare enter with all the wards I'm casting ard the area, n besides, whtever happened to u will nvr happen to her. Stop being such a worried wart

His breath coming in short gasps as if he could not catch it.

Sirius: *noticed n transfigurated a random object into a paper bag n held it on his face* Breathe in deep, Snape. Long deep breaths. Easy there

He started breathing in the bag. his breath then started to slow and calm down. he pulled the bag away. "I am scared..for her."

Sirius: And u knw tht I would nvr let anything bad happen to her. She will soon be my daughter aftr all

Severus nodded, but he didn't move away from Sirius. Really he wanted Sirius to comfort him. It had been nearly a week since he was raped and Sirius had returned to his bed. Most nights Severus would put a silence spell on his room so Sirius would not hear his nightmares.

Sirius: *held him close to his chest* U been having nightmares, Snape? I may not hear u at night, bt I can tell frm the slightly dark circles under ur eyes tht u havnt been sleeping well

"I'm a bat. What do you expect." He held on to him.

Sirius: No wisecracks, Snape. *rubs his bk* The... "incident" still bothering u?

Severus nodded. "Not only did he rape me, he thought I was a prostitute. I makes me feel sick when I think about it."

Sirius: *sighs* This is wht u get if u meet morons like ppl in Knockturn Alley. They'll think ur anything bt human. *cuddles him close, trying his best to comfort him with his gentle touches*

Severus breathed in deep. Sirius smelled of musk, and sandle wood. He closed his eyes, laying his head against Sirius' chest.

Sirius: *wasnt sure he was doing the right thing, bt he asked anyway* Do u...wanna sleep with me tonight? Just so I can keep an eye on u? I wont do anything, I promise

Severus nodded. He was not going to ask himself. He had his pride, or what was left. He looked up at Sirius. "Your not as bad as you were in school."

Sirius: Power play, remember? I'm being rebellious to get bk whtever self-control I hv left aftr being stripped off by it by my own family n the "family business"

"Please," He put his finger over Sirius' lips. "Don't talk about them."

Sirius: Sorry. Self-pity always does tht to me *takes the hand n kissed the bk of the palm*

Severus blushed slightly. "You can kiss me, if you want. I don't mind."

Sirius: Are u sure? I mean...I just dont wanna get ahead of ourselves. We're still...not exactly friends or anything...

"We are a maried couple. We should look like we at least are comfortable together."

Sirius: Yeah, I guess *looks at Sev for a while before tentatively leaning close, kissing Sev like he kissed him during the wedding day*

Severus kissed back just as slow. He put his arms around him. He felt so good.

Sirius: *reciprocate as well, wrapping his arms ard his waist, kissing him just a little bit deeper bt not intruding. It actually felt rather...nice*

Severus pulled back. "Make love to me."

Sirius: W...Wht? Are u sure?

"Our last time was different than I have ever had. I want to know what it feels like to have pleasure durring sex."

Sirius: *considered for a moment before picking him up* Vry well. Come along *takes him by the hand n led him upstairs*

Severus gulped. Maybe this was not good. "My room."

Sirius: OK *leds him to Sev's room, then sat him on the bed* R u reli, reli sure abt this? Once I start there will be no turning bk

"Yes. I want to." He nodded.

Sirius: *gently captures Sev's lips into his, guiding him to a slow tongue dance, his hands gently peeling Sev's clothes one by one*

Severus flinched at first when his skin was met with the air around them. He felt his heart racing but he didn't think it was become of passion.

Sirius: *slowly peppered kisses ard Sev's face n neck while his hands ran along Sev's skin, gently kneading Sev's chest*

Severus let out a little moan. He was starting to like it.

Sirius: *his fingers reached to tweak his nipples as he ran his tongue along Sev's jawline n neck*

"Ah!" He licked his lips that suddenly became dry. "Black."

Sirius: Mmh... Ur skin is so soft, do u knw tht? *gently pushes him dwn n took the nipples in his mouth, gently sucking n licking while his hand tweaked the other nipple*

"AH! No I didn't." He grabbed the bed. "Please, it feels so good."

Sirius: *continues to suckle Sev in turn as his hand reached dwn to gently stroke Sev's cock*

"Black." he ran his hands down Sirius' back.

Sirius: Call me by my first name, Severus. Pls *ran his tongue along Sev's body dwn to his navel*

"Sirius." He moaned and bit his lip. His body was running away with him.

Sirius: Mmh, good. God ur so smooth *takes the cock in his mouth n started sucking n licking as experience taught him to*

"Oh, god yes." He threaded his fingers though Sirius' hair. "So soft. Oh God!"

Sirius: *bobbed his head up n dwn, taking Sev whole, occasionally pulling out to run his tongue along teh cock before taking it whole again*

"Yes, yes. Oh I'm going to come." He bit his lip to stave off the impenting orgasam.

Sirius: *pulls off for a while* Do u want to come now, or u wanna come frm my cock?

"I...I don't know. Whatever you think it best."

Sirius: Then let me let u experience ur first pleasure *goes bk to sucking Sev, harder this time, his hand massaging his balls*

"Oh yes, yes, please, Sirius." He begged his hips movinga bit.

Sirius: *as he sucked, he wet his fingers with his drool tht leaked out n gently pushed one finger in, thrusting in n out at a gentle slow pace*

"Ah!" He whinced. It didn't hurt but he was use to tensing up.

Sirius: *pulls out* Shh...Relax, Severus. Just let urself go. Relax. I wont hurt u *takes the cock bk in his mouth, pushing another finger in n continued the same pace again, moving a little deeper until he was brushing against the spot*

At that moment Severus exploded into his mouth. That pleasure was something new to him. he felt like his body had been drained of all energy.

Sirius: *drank in every drop. It was bittersweet to the taste, n somehow rather intoxicating, he could almost suck him dry*

"God." He felt his body twich. "Sirius." he breathed.

Sirius: *licked his lips n pulled off* How does it feel, Severus?

"So good." He pantes, his hands falling from Sirius' hair. "Like I died and went to heaven."

Sirius: *chuckles* Well, then I'm glad *his fingers still inside Sev* Do u want me inside u? *wriggled them, a little bit brushing against the spot*

Severus whimpered. "Yes. Show me more pleasre...Sirius."

Sirius: Vry well *whispers a lube spell on both his cock n on Sev's hole before gently easing himself in*

Severus grabbed him. "Please, please." He asked, tensing up.

Sirius: Sorry *slows dwn* Wht's wrong? Did I hurt u?

"Just go slow." he panted. "It hurts a bit."

Sirius: OK *did a slow gentle thrusting move, inching himself slowly n deeper into Sev*

Severus tried breathing through, but his body was regeting the intutions. The more he tried to stop it the more his body did the exact oposite.

Sirius: *could feel the tenseness n leans ovr to kiss Sev on the cheeks* Shh...Relax...Dont think of anything, just let urself go, shh... *takes Sev's lips, kissing him gently as he carefully thrust the remaining length into him*

"I'm trying." he said. He kissed Sirius with everything he had. He let out a small sob as Sirius thrust the last bit in him. "Please, please tell me is over."

Sirius: Yes, Severus. It's all in now. Shh...We can stop this if u want

"No we have come this far." He said, looking up at him. "Just wait a moment. Let me get use you to. You are bigger then either of the other men."

Sirius: Well, tht's glad to hear, sorry if i hurt u *leans dwn to kiss Sev again, caressing his hair*

Severus put his arms around him kissing him back. He wound his hand in Sirius' hair.

Sirius: *deepens the kiss, doing French as he moved a little, almost questioningly whether it was OK to continue*

Severus had lossened up and the little move made him moan. "Gentel." He whispered giving him permission.

Sirius: *nods n started moving in a steady, gentle rhythm, holding onto Sev's hips for leverage*

"Ah!" His body tightened slightly but then lossened. It somehow felt nice. Not pleasureable but nice.

Sirius: *continues on with his pace, bt pushed himself a little deeper, the head of his cock pressing against the prostate*

"Right there." He urged him on. Everytime his postate was hit he lossened up more and had his feeling of euphoric pleasure.

Sirius: *increased his velocity a little bit, hitting on the spot as he suckled Sev's nipples in turn*

"Yes, yes. More, please more." he begged.

Sirius: Mmh...yes...god, ur so tight...so good *lifts Sev's legs up n spreads them a little to find a better angle before thrusting in, hitting the spot ovr n ovr accurately this time*

"OH GOD, SIRUS!" He moaned, thwoing his head back on the pillow. "Yes, right there." he begged and pleaded. "Don't stop, don't stop."

Sirius: Mmh, Severus...!! So good...!! So good...! *kept at it, leaning dwn to nibble n suckle at his nipples again, his hands massaging the area where he was holding onto*

"Please just a bit more." He was coming to his peak. "So close." He nails dug into Sirius' back.

Sirius: *decided to go ahead n go faster n harder, banging at the spot, his breath ragged as he was also closing in*

"Yes, yes." Severus reached down to stroke himself. "I need to come." He panted.

Sirius: Yes, come. I'm close too *letting sexual drive guide him as he made his last few thrust hard, fast n deep* Oh god, I'm coming!! *lets loose his load, his bk arched, making his cock jab deep n pressing hard against Sev's spot*

Severus moaned and bowed off the bed as he came, his come splashing on his chest and face.

Sirius: G...God...so good... *trembled as his orgasms finally subsided as he prepared to pull out*

Severus panted laying back on the bed, a bit dazed.

Sirius: *pulls out n lay dwn beside him, panting as he reached a trembling hand to wipe away the come on Sev's face, tasting them n licking them clean*

Severus looked over as he touched him. "Sirius." he pasted out.

Sirius: *uses a cleaning spell on both of them before he leans up to kiss Sev on the forehead, cuddling him close as he drifts off as well*

It was about six pm when there was a light knock on the door. "Papa?"

Sirius: *wakes up n saw tht Sev was still asleep n decided not to wake him. He gently removed himself frm the bed, tucked the blankets ovr Sev to cover him n dressed up before answering the door* Hey, Star. Sorry, ur Papa is sleeping right now. *comes out of the room n closes the door behind him* U alright there, girl?

"Yeah." She nodded. "I never stay mad long. I know he looks out for me." She smiled. "But it is six and I am hungry."

Sirius: *chuckles* Then lemme make dinner for u. Just hope u dont mind my cooking

"I don't mind. I stomach my mom's." She grinned.

Sirius: *chuckles* Tht bad of a cook, is she? *goes to the kitchen to get started* How's it going with ur mom n Sergeo?

"Papa was the cook in the family." She said, jumping out on a counter that he would not use. "Mom is in love and Sergeo is nice. I guess. But I can't understand him half the time. He has a heavy accent. Are you really wanting to addopt me?"

Sirius: Of course. I made a promise to ur Papa to look aftr u, n aftr all, I'm quite taken into u *pinches her nose n smiled* U kinda remind me of my younger self

Star was grinning. "Were you two making babies?" She asked.

Sirius: *almost cut his finger while chopping spring onions* Dang, ur a cheeky one, arent u? I knew I was right wen I said to ur Papa tht ur not as innocent as u seem

"Mom is the blunt one, Papa is the secritive one. I know where babies came from when I was six. Although I don't know how men would make them. Is it different than men and women?"

Sirius: Well, the sexual part is definitely one thing different, since there is no way other than getting thru the "back door", bt conception will be a little tedious than women. Usually, wen their magic is compatible, conception will be achieved n during the birth, a birth canal will appear for the baby to come out. Those who r not, will hv to rely on impregnation potion

"Wow." She blinked. "Do you love Papa?"

Sirius: *hesitated as he dropped the ingredients into the pot* Well, I...cant reli say for sure. To be honest, ur Papa n I werent reli tht much in good terms wen we were younger. Bt I do care for him

"You would never hurt Papa, right? He is not that strong undernith that hard shell. Many nights I have heard him talking to Auntie Lily about his problem."

Sirius: Of course not. I would nvr hurt him, not aftr wht he had been through. He told me of his problems too, something tht it's best if u knw wen ur older, n I shared my problems to him as well. We've come to an agreement tht we're both victims of our past n try to be civil with each other.

"I hope you two do fall in love. I think you make a good couple."

Sirius: *smiles* Thanks, Star. So...ur not adverse to me adopting u n being ur other parent?

"Not really. I like you and I don't want to be with Sergeo's daughters. They made fun of me that I were pants to the your wedding. I hate dresses."

Sirius: *raised a brow* A regular tomboy, aint ya? Why would u hate dresses? U'd look pretty in skirts

"You can't play in them."

Sirius: There's always wearing bloomers or short pants underneath, you knw *stirs in the pot*

"Nope. I hate dresses."

Sirius: *chuckles* Whtever rocks ur boat, girl. *finishes cooking then picks Star off the counter* Alright. Soup's up. Go set the table

Star jumped down and set the table. "Siri, what does bastard mean?"

Sirius: *raised a brow* Who told u tht?

"When Papa told Mama that you wanted to adopt me she called him a sick bastard. I was hiding in the corner so I could heard them. I asked Papa if he was ill afterwards and he said he was not so I asked one of Sergeo's daughters and they laughed and said something in Russian so I asked Sergeo and he said that was adult bussiness and I should not be nosy."

Sirius: Well "bastard" is not exactly a word u should be learning at ur age, n ur supposed to use tht word sparingly. Technically it means someone who is born out of wedlock, bt ppl usually use tht word wen they're upset just to insult ppl, is all *brings the food to the table* Hope u like chicken casserole

"So Mama was upset at Papa. Then why did she call him sick if he was not ill." She showed how innocent she really was.

Sirius: *smiles n shook his head* Sick can mean a lot of things, luv. It can mean the mind, not the body. Basically ur mother is saying tht ur dad is crazy for letting me adopt u

"Oh." She nodded and dug in. "Then why is she not mad when Sergeo wanted to adopt me?"

Sirius: Tht's because it's Sergeo, the love of her life tht we're talking abt. U do knw tht ur mother wants u all to herself, dont u? *ate his food* Well, I must say I fair well in cooking

"Yeah, it is good." At tha moment Severus appeared.

"Star I am sorry I forgot dinner." He stopped short.

"It's ok. Siri made dinner, it is pretty good." She smiled up at him.

Sirius: *smiles up* It's not much, bt it's edible. C'mon. Grab a plate n join us

Severus came over and sat by Star. He got himself a plate and stared eating. "Not bad Black."

Sirius: *a little peeved tht he has returned to calling him his last name, bt didnt push it* So, Snape, slept well?

"Very well thank you." He nodded.

"Siri said you two were making babies." She grinned.

"Oh he did, did he?" Severus gave him a death glare.

Sirius: I nvr said it specifically. Star implied it n I confirmed it, is all. *shot Star an awkward annoyed look*

"Oh my fave show in the wireless is going to be on any minute. Bye!" She took his plate and ran from the room.

Severus shook his head.

Sirius: *chuckles* She's a vry lively little girl, I'll give ya tht

"About earlier, your services will no longer be required."

Sirius: *raised a brow* Hey? Wht do u mean by tht?

"I will not be requiring anymore comforting."

Sirius: *frowned a little* U make me sound like someone for hire

Severus blinked. "I did not mean for it to sound like that, Black. I meant your don't have to comfort me any more. Today was nice but I don't need it again."

Sirius: Ah, bt if u evr need it, dont hesitate to ask. U knw I'm there for u, tho u hv to bear with my working hours. Remy broke up with me coz of tht. Being an Auror isnt reli all fun n games, bt it pays the bills, n its my passion

"I don't mind. We did not get in this marriage for the quality time. When is your next mission?"

Sirius: Probably sometime nxt week, or the nxt day. There's no telling where n when the mission will be. It's an unpredictable job. I gotta be on my toes all the time

Severus nodded. "Star is going back to her mom's in a few more days. When you leave I will go back to my rooms at the school."

Sirius: *looks up at him, surprised* Why not just stay here?

"I can work on my potions." ~And I don't want to be alone~ he added in his head. "I will come back when you do."

Sirius: *nods* Vry well. Just to let u knw, the adoption paperworks r on the way. Hopefully they will approve the adoption

Severus nodded, eaching his food.

Sirius: *wondered whether he should before taking a deep breath n whispered* Dont say I told u this, bt Star overheard u n Cassi arguing abt the adoption

"I know." He sighed. "She was less than civil." he put his hands over his face and rubbed his face. "I need a day to just relax."

Sirius: Why not just take the day off tomorrow? It's the weekend

"I have lessons to get ready for next week. I need to water the garden and finish up the weeding. I need to get Star rolling to get he clothes to me so I can wash them. Then there is the potions I need to brew soon, not mention the ingredeants that I need to get in the forest."

Sirius: Well, I cant contend with the lessons u need to prepare, bt the garden n weeding can wait, or I can do it. The laundry, I can do it as well. N we can get the ingredients for the potion together. Seriously, Snape, the whole world's problems dont hv to rest on ur shoulder alone

"I am not use to being helped. I am use to doing it all on my own. I have been for years. You should know how that is."

Sirius: I knw, bt it's abt time u learn tht now tht we're married, I should hv my share of the workload as well. It's only fair

"I suppose." he nodded, he looked at his food. "I suppose I will go get started on my lessons."

Sirius: *smiles* Then I'll get started with Star's laundry then *gathers the dishes n took them to the kitchen to be washed*

Severus sat there for a moment before getting up. He had vision that he would be done with Sirius but now he wanted him back. He wanted the intimacy. He sighed and got up and went back to his bedroom. He closed the door and went over and sat on the bed. He took Sirius' pillow wrapped his arms around it breathing in the smell that still leangered there. "Sirius.." He started crying into the pillow.

Sirius: *did the dishes n then pestered Star to pass him her laundry. Wen he took the laundry to the laundry room, he realized tht one of them was Sev's robe. His heart ached a little at the thought tht Sev didnt need him. It was a wonderful moment they shared yet he felt like it was just one of those one night stands. Hugging the robe, he whispered Sev's name, as if he was hugging Sev in person*

Severus laid down on the bed. He always let his pride get in the way. He couldn't just go tell Sirius he wanted him, he needed him. No, his pride would not let him. He had been alone for so long that the first touch of gentelness was like a nurshing water than he both needed and feared. He wanted to wake up in the middle of the night with a pair of arms around him, or to eat breakfast in the morning, or even a walk. But a deeper part, a part that had been with him since his mother died told him he could survie on his own.

Sirius: *as he did the laundry, he made a silent vow to himself tht no matter wht happens, whether Sev required it or not, he will be there for him, every step of the way. He had not once cared for him except to refrain frm raping him when they were younger, neither had he had the need to care for anyone as strong as this, n now tht he was given a chance, he was not going to let it go. Sev needed him, he knew, n he will be there for him, no matter wht*