Unwanted Desire-Chapter 24

CHAPTER 24

Severus was in his lab when he felt the attack of nasuea. He ran to the bathroom to puke. It seemed to repeat every morning for the next six days. On the seventh Severus created a pregncy potion and took the test. The test turned a lovely shade of pink, indicating that Severus was indead pregnant. Thoughts started running through his mind, the wedding night, the time he suduced Sirius inthe graden and not to mintion the rape. His heart froze. It could be that man's child. What was he going to do. He could only think of one thing. Fire calling Lily.

Lily: *was sorting thru some things in the closet, mostly baby clothes. She had received owl frm her son n son-in-law abt the good news n wanted to help them with anyway she can, n instincts told her tht the child might be a boy, so she started searching for Harry's baby clothes tht she still kept. Wen she heard the familiar crackle, she went to answer the call* Yes, Potter resi...Ah! Sevvy! Wht a surprise! *sees his ashened face* Something wrong, Sevvy?

"Lily I need you to come over. I...I'm pregnant." He got out before fainting, thankfully not on the fire or on his stomach.

Lily: *gasped* Sevvy! *ended the firecall n quickly Floo-ed thru to Sev's plc, cradling his head on her lap* Sevvy! Sevvy, dont scare me like tht! Wake up!

Severus groaned as he woke up and saw Lily. "It just can''t be."

Lily: Wht cant it be? Ur pregnant. Isnt tht a good thing?

"No." he gasped, his eyes tearing up. "Not when...." He took a few deep breaths to keep the tears at bay. "Lily, it just can't."

Lily: *held Sev gently* Sevvy, is there something wrong? Something ur not telling me?

"I..." He sat up, his back to her. "I was raped about two days after my wedding. I might be Blacks, but there is a 50% chance it is not."

Lily: *covers her mouth* Oh my god...How did tht happen?

"The man thought I was a prostitue and raped me." He said, trying not cry, but silent tears were coming down his face.

Lily: Oh Sevvy *held him close to her chest* Just wen ur finally settling dwn... Maybe u could do a paternal test? Just to make sure?

"You can't those until your sixth month when you find out the sex of the baby." he tried to be strong but he just broke down. "I don't know what to do. He won't want this baby and it will not fulfil the prophecy."

Lily: Hush, hush, shh... *rubs his bk* It's OK. It's OK. It's gonna be OK. Dont worry abt it. I'm sure Siri wouldnt be tht bad. He'll understand either way. Does he knw u were raped tht time?

"Yes, he is the one that found me." he sobbed into her chest. "I don't want him to know about the baby. I don't want to him say anything about it."

Lily: *looks at him sternly* Sevvy, u knw u cant do tht. U r going to show sooner or later, n Siri has the right to knw. U r still his wife, whether u like it or not

"I...I...I am going to get an abourtion."

Lily: *widened her eyes* WHAT?! No!! U cant! Wht if it turns out to be Siri's child aftr all?! Evn if it isnt, it's still an innocent child! I would've thought u'd be the last person to kill a child!

"I feel paniced, Lily. I don't know what I want to do."

Lily: First thing's first, Sevvy. Siri must knw, n I'm not going to take no for an answer *looks at him with a serious face*

"....Then will you be here when he comes home? He is supose to be home later tonight. I can't do it alone."

Lily: I'll be with u every step of the way. Just promise me u wont abort it

Severus nodded, but he did promise in words. He leaned against her. He didn't know when these feels had come to let themselves be known but he didn't want Sirirus to be disapointed him in him.

Lily: *held him close in comfortable silence, waiting for Sirius to come home with him*

Sirius: *came home roughly abt 10pm, sighing tiredly as he got rid of the cricks on his neck*

Severus had fixed some dinner for him and Lily and for Sirius when ever he would come in. It must have been from the neaves but Severus was throwing up more. He was currently in the livingroom.

Sirius: *hung his Auror robes on the robe stand n saw Lily sitting there reading the Daily Prophet* Lil! Wht a surprise! Wht r u doing here?

Lily: Just to accompany a friend, n giving him a bit of moral support

Sirius: *raised a confused brow*

Lily: *gently nudged Sev*

Severus got up from his chair, looking a little timid, so unlike Severus. "Black...Sirius....today I took a test." he looked at Lily then turned his head back to Sirius, but looked down. "Siri-us, I'm pregnant."

Sirius: *shocked, unable to believe wht he just heard* C-Come again...?

Lily: *rolled her eyes*

"Please don't make me say it again." he started to cry. "I'M PREGNANT!"

Sirius: *wen the msg finally sunk in, he reached ovr to hug Sev close to his chest* S-Sorry. I just...didnt knw how to react. Oh, Severus, we're gonna be parents. *sees the tears tht didnt look like happy ones* Severus, wht's wrong? Arent u happy?

"Don't you get it!" He yelled, trying to push him away. "It may not be yours!" He sobbed. "It may not be yours." he repeated, more to himself. He feared Sirius would get it and tell him he wanted an abortion. Sirius would want to raise another man's child and Severus was not sure he wanted to.

Sirius: *blinked for a while, glanced at Lily who looked bk at him knwingly before everything hit home* Oh, yeah tht. Well, so wht if it's not mine? Its still our child, just as Star is ours as well

Severus sniffled. He couldn't believe it. He leaned up and kissed Sirius. It had just come out of nowhere but he knew he had been wanting to do this for so long.

Lily: *widened her eyes in surprise for a minute there before smiling* I guess I'll take my leave now *gets up n Floo-ed bk home*

Sirius: *had not expected Sev's reaction n didnt return the kiss at first, bt finally his arms wrapped ard Sev's waist, kissing him bk, following the pace, deepening the kiss*

Severus was still crying, he was still scared about the future but he just wanted Sirius. "Sirius, I love you. I have loved you for sometime." He said as they parted. "I am not use to his feeling, but I must know how you feel about me.."

Sirius: *smiled as he kissed his forehead* Yeah, I love u too. The day u kissed me in the Express, u kinda sparked a little of my feelings for u, n everytime I plan a new prank to throw at u, my heart would unconsciously ache at the thought of u getting hurt seriously frm it, n wen u were attacked by Remy, I honestly prepared to expel myself frm school as penance for hurting u. I love u too Severus. I just nvr reli realized till aftr all this time we've been together

"Sirius...Will you make love to me again? I have missed you since you left. I don't want you to sleep in this house without it being in my bed."

Sirius: I wouldnt have it any other way, Severus *brought him close in his arms n kissed him deeply*

Severus wrapped his arms around him, kissing back with all he had him in. His body was tingling.

Sirius: *kissed him some more, guiding him to a slow tongue dance before the need for air separates them* U wanna do it here or in the room?

"I don't care, which ever you want." He pant, looking up at him wit ha flushed face.

Sirius: Well, I definitely can't wait to be inside u again, so the couch it is *led him to the couch n gently laid him dwn, attacking his neck with lovebites*

Severus arched his neck to give him a better angle. "Please, please." He begged, clawing at Sirius' jacket.

Sirius: *got the idea n whispered a spell, magicking away all of their clothes. He leaned dwn to lick Sev's naked body frm the neck dwn, n stopped at Sev's belly in which he planted gentle butterfly kisses on it*

Severus bit his finger as he moaned, his other hand was buried in sirius' hair. Just a bit more and he was be right where his cock was aching for release.

Sirius: *whispers* Our baby. Our beautiful baby *lowers evn more until his tongue ran along the cock frm the root to the tip n bk again*

"Yes, please." He begged. letting his hand fall from Sirius' hair. "Please, let me come."

Sirius: *hummed his reply as he took Sev's cock on whole, bobbing up n dwn, sucking n licking him*

"Oh, fuck yes." Severus arched a bit. "Sirius!"

Sirius: *sucked n licked harder, his hands reaching ovr to massage teh balls*

"Yes, yes, so close." He bit his finger again.

Sirius: *his hand reached up to take the finger Sev was biting, wanting him to let it out as he deepthroat him*

Severus grabbed the couch, letting a loud scream out. "God, so close , so close."

Sirius: *relaxed his throat as he deepthroat him, the tip hitting the bk of his throat, his hands lean up to tweak at Sev's nipples*

"God!!!!!!!!!!" He bit his lips to hild back the scream as he came, but it only did a half good job. He ended up biting too hard and spit his lip. He laid back panting from his orgasam.

Sirius: *swallowed every drop of Sev's seed, not wasting a single bit, then he looked up to see Sev's bleeding lip n leaned ovr to kiss it better*

Severus kissed back. "Do..do you want me to return the favor?" He asked.

Sirius: Only if u want to, Sev. I wont force u

"You may think it odd, but it will be my first time...doing..it..." he blushed and tired hit hide his face.

Sirius: *blinks in surprise, bt turns Sev to face him* How come?

"Well...my father never really forced that on me, and I never had any lovers, until you and Cassi, well......" he trailed off.

Sirius: *smiles n held him close* It's OK, it's nothing to be embarassed abt. If u reli wanna do this, I'll guide u thru

"I shoulden't swallow. That would hur the baby so tell me when you are close ok?" He ask, sitting up. How should he do this? He could get ont his knees. He slipped of the couch and onto his knees on the floor.

Sirius: *smiles n caress Sev's cheek* Start off by licking the tip n work ur way up. Draw circles ard it, n watch the teeth

Severus nodded, blushing bright red as he started to take Sirius out. When he pulled Sirius' underpants down he popped free. He licked his lips, nerviously. "Di...did you like it the first time? I know it may have been with a a client, but did you?"

Sirius: Not exactly, to be honest *ran his fingers thru Sev's locks* At tht time, it was a nightmare, having someone else's dick in my mouth, bt I slowly got used to it, n to those clients tht I liked, I enjoyed it more or less

"I promise, whenever you want sex. I will give it to you, no matter what." he nodded, making the promise. He leaned down tentivly licking out the tip.

Sirius: It's OK. I wont ask it if ur not in the mood for it. I want u to be happy too. *feels the tongue on him* It's OK. Be bolder. Lick some more, n cover more ground

Severus nodded, licking more. He was going to make this the best one Sirius had ever had. He reached up to stroke Sirius' stomach, then down to his thighs. He licked down the base and back up.

Sirius: Mmh...Vry nice *gently guides Sev's head to make him take his cock in his mouth* Take in as much as u can, dont force urself

Severus nodded, opening his mouth, mindful of his teeth as he took Sirius into his mouth. He didn't really know how much to take. He did trip his gag reflexes, but he refused to pull off and just kept going trying to get bast his gag reflex.

Sirius: Easy, Sev, easy. Don't force urself. Take it nice n slow. U'll get the hang of it slowly. Just take wht u can n bob in n out, like I do it to u

Severus shook his head, no he was going to do this right. He pulled back before pushing back, took take him whole. He closed his eyes as they started to water.

Sirius: *his heart ached a little seeing how much Sev wanted to please him. He reached dwn to wipe the tears away frm Sev's eyes*

Severus looked up at him he pulled up a bit and started bobbing on him, fast, stroking him with his hand to maximize his pleasure.

Sirius: Ooh, gods, yes...Tht's good...Mmh... *curled his fingers ard Sev's hair, his hips bucked a little frm the blowjob he was given*

Severus took him to the root again, he had bobbed up and down, each time taking him to the root.

Sirius: *pants erratically* Yes...Yes...Mmh...I'm close, Sev...

Severus deep throat him again, before pulling off and stroking him hard and faster.

Sirius: Yes...Yes...YES!!! *let his load loose all over Sev's hand, some of them getting onto Sev's face, his whole body spasmed*

Severus flinched a bit, pulling back. He stroked Sirius' until he had milked him. "What it do?" his voice a bit rough from the sore throat he had now.

Sirius: Huh? *was coming dwn frm his high n barely understood wht Sev just said*

"Was it good." he ran his finger through some come and tasted it. He grimmiced, it was salty and bitter.

Sirius: Oh yes. It was amazing. Ur pretty good for ur first time *chuckles at Sev tasting his come* U dont hv to do tht

"It's bitter." He said. He looked up at him. "Do you like the taste of come?" He backed track. "Oh I didn't mean to say that. I mean, god." He sighed, he didn't want Sirius to remember his past job. "Forget what I said."

Sirius: *chuckles n picks Sev up, holding him close, whispering a spell to clean Sev's face off his come* It's OK. Dont worry abt it. Normally I dont, bt I definitely love ur taste *licks Sev's cheek*

Severus shivered, he rubbed agianst Sirius' leg. he had gotten hard during the blowjob. "Uh....are we done?" He asked.

Sirius: We are nowhere done. See? *showed his reawakened cock frm Sev rubbing against him* I could fuck u all night if u want to *pushed Sev gently dwn onto the couch*

"Yes. Please." He said, pulling Sirius on top of him. "I want you inside me." He blushed.

Sirius: Ur wish is my command, my lovely little wife *captures Sev's lips in a deep kiss as he lubed himself up with a lube spell before slowly entering him with one thrust*

"Wait, wait, wait! Slow." he panted.

Sirius: Sorry *slowed dwn a little, kissing his neck*

Severus arched his neck. The feeling of being fill once filled him with a sick feeling but now it felt so good. As if he was would die if he didn't get all over Sirius in him, then on the other hand his body was not too sure if it liked the intrution. "So good." He panted.

Sirius: I'll make u feel evn better, Sev *kisses his cheeks before slowly inching the last bit of him into him, the tip brushing gently against the spot*

Severus grabbed him, his arrms going around him, arching up to him. "Oh god, yes." He moaned, and closed his eyes. "Thank you." He breathed.

Sirius: *waited until he's adjusted before starting in a slow n steady rhythm, his head of cock brushing against the spot randomly*

"Oh god, more, more, please!" he asked, letting go of everything.

Sirius: *shifted in another angle n moved faster n harder, hitting the spot dead on*

"YES, YES!" he wound his legs around Sirius' hips. "Harder, please, it feels so good."

Sirius: *does so, increasing his velocity, banging onto the spot tht made Sev see stars ovr n ovr again*

Severus let out a wordless cry, moaning over and over. He tightened his hands on Sirius' back.

Sirius: *spread Sev's legs a little for more access, literally banging against the spot, groaned at the way Sev's ass clenched everytime he hit the spot*

"So....close...." he whispered in a strangled voice. his eyes rolled back as Sirius hit his spot just right. "FUCK! DON'T GOD....." after that last word he lost was trying to say.

Sirius: *captured Sev's lips again, kissing him deeply as he continued to aim for the spot, feeling himself getting close as he reached dwn to stroke Sev*

Severus came after the slight touch of Sirius' hands. "..." he moaned, pulling Sirius close.

Sirius: *the clench of Sev's ass frm his orgasm did him in. Quickly, he pulled out n came all ovr Sev's middle n thighs, letting out a satisfied groan*

Severus finched when he felt Sirius come on him, but he didn't say a word, half because he could not find the braincells for that and half because he didn't want to ruin the mood for Sirius.

Sirius: *pants as he came dwn frm his high again, laying dwn on top of Sev, careful not to crush him* Did it feel good for u, Sev?

"Very nice." he nodded. he itched to wash off. "I think I better for shower before the come dries." he said, wating for Sirius to get up.

Sirius: Why the hurry? Stay a while *nuzzles him as he held him close*

"Uh, ok." He nodded, licking his lips... "Star is coming over in a few days, so I want to be the one to tell her."

Sirius: Sure, anything u like. Although I'm sure Star would be just as excited as I am *gently caresses Sev's still-flat belly*

"She will be more if it is boy." He still felt uncomfortable and now vunerable. "I really want to shower."

Sirius: Aww...Alright *didnt want Sev's warmth to be gone, bt he didnt want him to be uncomfortable as he got up*

"I will be back soon, promise." He kissed him and went to the bathroom. He scrubbed off Sirius' come, before srubbing again. "Ok, get a hold of yourself, Severus. Sirius is not your father." He took a deep breath. How he hated his father now.

Sirius: *sighed, wondering wht was tht all of a sudden before shrugging, going to the other bathroom n cleaned himself as well before returning to the couch, waiting for him*

After a bit sirius came back in pants and a light shirt button up shirt, button up to his neck. he sat next to Sirius. "I really enjoyed the intercourse with you." He nodded. "Did you wish I knew more about sex then just the true intercourse?"

Sirius: *moved closer to him* Well, maybe just a little, bt I'm willing to teach u

"I never thought I would be with another man. I thought that part was over." He said. "I never thought I would have sex again."

Sirius: And yet here u r now, with me, n enjoying every moment of it. I promise u things will get better *kissed his cheek*

He nodded. "I know it will. I just feel like a fish out of water." He nodded again, looking at his feet.

Sirius: U just need some time to get used to this new life, is all, n I'll be there every step of the way*

"Still trying. A month and half ago I was told I was to marry you, then I had sex with you and now I pregnant." he looked at his belly and put a hand over it. "It feels unreal. I fill like I will wake up at any moment and be back in my rooms at Hogwarts."

Sirius: Then I will make sure that u will wake up to see tht u r with me whenever I can *threads his fingers along Sev's locks* R u sure ur fine with me being on shifts n calls all the time?

"It is your job, and we will need it. I have to take a leave of absense. Working with potions is too risky for the child I am carrying. I will be find with it. I mean the longest you will be gone is two week, right?" He looked over at him.

Sirius: Yeah, roughly ard tht time, bt I'll firecall u every chance I get. I've just sent ovr the adoption papers for Star, so hopefully they'll approve

"I do too." he sighed and leaned against sirius.

Sirius: *kissed his forehead n held him close*