CHAPTER 58
Severus was up early before Sirius. He took a pad and went to the ajoing room and sat on the floor. He started to scetch what the room would look like with all the baby things in it. Although he would not draw worth a hoot. It did give him time to think. Once the collar was off that was that. The last piece of his Master power over him was gone. He gently stroked it. Maybe if he asked nicely he could get a replacement. He sighed there would be nothing on him that held any promise of getting married. The would be nothing to Sirius, although he was nothing to him as slave, at least in others eyes. He couldn't even start the renivations to the room until he was married. What if Sirius couldn't get to today off? What if he for the collar off but they didn't get married? Too many thoughts swam in his head. And what of when he got bigger, would Sirius like his body? Severus had aways been a thin man.
Sirius: *woke up to find Sev not at his side. He wondered where he was before he saw the door to the adjoining room slight ajar. He put on his robes, got up and came up to Sev. He saw him with a pad and squatted beside him* What are u drawing there, love?
"Our babies new room. I want to get rid of his bed and not have it ever in this room. I don't want our son to some day slee in the day where we had sex."
Sirius: *chuckles* Is it a bad thing? He'll knw this is where he is conceived *nuzzled him teasingly*
"Besides it is your brother's old bed. I want to get rid of anyhting that what his. I don't want that reminder. I also what to get rid of this dark green and so with pale yellow, to brighten the space."
Sirius: You've reli thought abt this, haven't u, love? *looks at the sketch* Nice
"Yes. I want this to be our sons spot." He nodded. " I want the changing table and crib on the far wall then a waredrobe over on this wall. I want to open the window more with better curtins. And I want a lock put on the door."
Sirius: A lock? Ur not trying to lock our child in, are u?
"No, for when he is older. I don't want him to come in on us."
Sirius: *chuckles* Yeah, we wouldn't want to scar him for life. U seemed to be at ease with the fact tht our baby is gonna be a boy
"I jut feel it. I want to give you and heir and I want our other children to havea big brother."
Sirius: But we don't want to pressure him into thinking tht just because he's the eldest and my heir, he had to please us all the time
"But isn't that what a is expective of him? To be the heir?" He looked at him. "I was reading about how to rasie children of class. I want to raise them myself and not have a nanny but the eldest son will have to be the heir and he has big shoes to fill, right?"
Sirius: Yes, and give him premature pressure while you at it, love. *hugged Severus affectionately* Sev, a child wishes to be raised and loved by their parents simply because they want to knw they love him for who he is, not wht he is. Ur raising a son, not the future Grand Merlin
"But that is how the book said a child of class sound be raised. I want him to fit in. I don't want him to have problems not fiting in. He will be your son. You are a Lord. I am barely a pee on."
Sirius: No, Sev. Once ur married to me, u will the wife of a Lord, which makes equal just to anyone. And I dont believe in those class crap. I was raised as a child of class n so did Cissy n Malfoy, n see wht they end up as? No, I want our child to experience as normal childhood as possible.
Severus nodded. "I just want to be a good mother. I will try, Sirius."
Sirius: Just do whtever ur parental instincts tell u. It'll come naturally. Now, I better get cracking n call Remus to bring Drake ovr
"Oh yes..." Severus nodded. "I guess I will take a shower."
Sirius: *kisses Sev on the cheek n went towards the fireplc*
After a moment he spoke. "Sirius, after I get this collar off...with you buy me a new one?"
Sirius: *was abt to make the call bt stopped in his tracks* Huh? Why?
"I want to belong to you." he rubbed the collar.
Sirius: U will once ur married to me n have ur wedding ring. U dont need a collar. It'll just remind me of u being a slave
"Ok." Severus looked down and his hands and sighed. Slowly he got up and started to the bathroom.
Sirius: *looked at him n wondered wht it was all abt, bt he had to make the firecall first* Remy? Yohoo, Remy?
There was no answer.
Sirius: *sees there was no reply* Hmm, strange, where can he be?
Severus undressed and got into the shower. Letting it beat down on him.
Sirius: *shrugged* Well, I guess I'll just have to write to him *gets a quill n paper n wrote to Remus to bring Draco ovr*
Severus started crying. He didnt want to let go of the collar. He knew it had to come. "Master." He whimpered.
Sirius: *done writing n sent the owl on its way before joining Sev in the bath, only to see him with a sad face* Love? Sev love, are u alright? Wht's wrong? *held him in his arms*
Severus turned to kiss him with a hand and demanding kiss.
Sirius: *kissed him bk, trying to match his pace, bt he knew something wasn't right* Love, are u alright? Talk to me
"Once it goes I will be nothing." Severus cried into his shoulder.
Sirius: Wht? Once why goes? Pet, ur not making any sense *tries to rub his bk to ease him*
"My coll...ar." He sobbed. "What if we can't get married as soon?"
Sirius: Dont u worry abt tht. Like u said, I'm a Lord. I can buy my way to a fast wedding. Why would u want the collar tht'll just remind u of ur past life?
"To remind me of you." He sniffled. "To remind me of the kind Master. You put it on me, then make love to me. It will have very good memoires."
Sirius: Why dont u say so? *chuckles* Dont worry. If u like it so much, I'll get u a much better one than this.
"I'm sorry, Master. I am just so hormanal."
Sirius: I understand. Ur just pregnant, n so sexy right now *kisses him tenderly*
He kissed him back. "Do you think you will like me is I get bigger?"
Sirius: Of course I will. U are carrying my child. Wht's not to like?
"I will be big and ackward."
Sirius: Because our child will be growing. It's normal
Severus nodded. "I know, just feeling off with this pregnancy."
Sirius: Why? Ur not regretting it, are u? *looking at him concerned*
"No. I want him. I just feel like you won't want my body when I get huge."
Sirius: I would nvr not want u. I've made u this way, n I've been thru hell n bk. There is no way I would ever deny u
"Master." He leaned in and kissed him.
Sirius: *kissed him bk, threading his fingers thru Sev's hair*
Severus kissing deeper.
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