Journey into Love-Chapter 78

CHAPTER 78

Severus hadd ben running around trying to get everything perfect. They still had two months but it seemed to be not enough time. "SIRIUS!" He yelled for like the thrid time that morning. "I told you no yellow! Our son with not be dressed as a sun!" He threw the yellow clothes, which he himself had bought, out ofthe closet.

Sirius: *rolled his eyes. Despite the fact tht he had been warned abt Sev being hormonal, it was tougher experiencing it rather than being told of it. He lowers to pick up the yellow clothes n groans* Sev, love, u were the one to choose this colour

"And then I desided I didn't want you. You were the one that was suppose to take it out. You don't care about doing anything for this baby. You just got me pregnant so you could go off on your own."

Sirius: *sighs* C'mon, love. Dont behave tht way. U r being unreasonable. U've already changed the them of this plc like a thousand times before u decided it was right, now ur gonna fuss ovr a bunch of baby clothes? And dont start, pls. I wouldn't be here if I reli did wht u accuse me of doing

"Then go. Go back to work." He frowned and crossed his arms. "I know you just want to be rid of your old hormal wife." He turned back rearagning the clothes.

Sirius: Aww, c'mon, pls, dont go all sulky on me. Here, lemme give u a hug n make it all better *reaches ovr to wrap his arms ard him in attempts to calm him dwn some*

Severus slapped his arm away. "I don't want a hug. I want you gone and out of my way." He frowned. "I'm busy."

Sirius: *frowns bt tries again* Pls, love? I love you... *reli wraps his arms ard him in a hug*

"Sirius if you do not take you hands off me I will rip them off." He was still in a pissy mood and a hug was the last thing he wanted.

Sirius: I dare u to *still adamant, although his tone sounded frustrated because his patience was wearing off a little. Usually a hug always worked in calming dwn Sev. Maybe just a little tighter would do it*

Severus pulled an arm away. "Get away from me!" Severus stomped from the room.

Sirius: *sighs n followed aftr him* Love, pls. Be reasonable. Love, dont walk out on me like this, c'mon *chases aftr him*

"I said away. I don't want to take at all." He said, walking faster.

Sirius: Love, pls. U being upset like this is not good for the baby *grabs his wrists*

Severus wiped around and pulled at his hand. "Just leave me be, Sirius." He frowned. "Your annoying me."

Sirius: Not as much as u are annoying the entire household *puts his hands gently on Sev's shoulders* Pls, u have to calm dwn n have a clear head. U knw wht the docs say abt being agitated

"Shove off!" Severus shoved but little he know that they were by the stairs.

Sirius: *got pushed with such a force tht he lost his footing, n before he knew it, he was rolling dwn the flight of steps with a loud crash*

Severus eyes widened. "SIRIUS! PAPRIKA!!" He screamed nearly flying down the stairs himself. He knelt by Sirius head. "Sirius, love. Please wake up."

Paprika: *rushes out* Oh Santa Madre of Merlin! Wht happened? *tends to Sirius' head, which was bleeding a little*

"I pushed, and he..." Severus bent over sobbing. "I'm not mad anymore, Sirius. God I'm so sorry. Please Sirius." He took his hand and kissed the back of it.

Paprika: I'll go call the doctor *takes off her apron* Press this on Master Black's head to stop the bleeding *rushes off to make a firecall*

Severus pressed it to his head. "Please, Sirius. Don't leave me. I need you too much. We still have yet to decide the baby's name. Please. I'll do anything you want if you just wake up."

Paprika: *returns* The doctor will be here soon *summoned some man servants to carry Sirius upstairs to the bedroom*

"Be gentle with him." Severus followed behind them. When they got to the bedroom Sirius pulled the covers down to make Sirius more comfotable.

Sirius: *was out cold as the man servants lay him on bed*

Paprika: *keeps the pressure on the head until the doc arrives*

The doctor came in and straight over to Sirius. "What happen?" He asked.

Severus sniffed. "We were having a fight and I pushed him."

Nurse: *raised a disapproving brow as she treated Sirius' bleeding head along with the doc*

Paprika: *tries to comfort Sev by rubbing his back*

Severus cried into his shirt. "I killed him I know I did."

"He is not dead. He might have a consution and at worse he may have amnisa."

Paprika: Am...Amnesia, doc?

Nurse: It's not uncommon, wht with this sort of head trauma. But other than tht, he's fine

"Other than that? You are kidding me?" He said. "We are too have a child. You need he will not remember any of that?"

"It is posiable. But sometimes they can be brought out of that by something formiliar."

Paprika: *tries to ease Sev's panic attack* Such as, doctor?

"Familar food, clothes, even smells can do it. I heard once a man took his woman on a vacation to the plece where they first met and it brought her memories back."

Paprika: Thank goodness. Then there's still hope, Sev

Nurse: *finishes the bandages n medication on his head*

Severus sniffed and nodded, but it felt like there was none.

"You need to calm down. This is not good for the baby." The doctor said.

Paprika: *strokes Sev's bk some more n hushed him, trying to calm him dwn*

Nurse: All done now. *passes a vial to Sev* Give this to him to prevent infection 3 times a day, n change the bandages once every 4 hours

Severus took it and nodded. "When do you think he will wake up?"

Nurse: Give him abt a few hours or so. He'll wake up then. In the meantime, dont try to wake him

Severus nodded and sat down next to Sirius.

The doctor mostioned for the nurse to follow him. "And you, Severus Black, get some rest."

Paprika: *sent the doctor n nurse out, giving Sev eye contact to follow the doc's advice before leaving with them*

Severus laid down on the bed next to him. "Sirius." He took his hand. "I'm sorry. I neve ment to hurt you. I just wanted to be left alone. If I had it to do over I would have let you hug me."

Sirius: *still asleep, his breathing level n his colour bk to normal, his head bandaged n the bleeding no longer came*

"Sirius, please wake up. I need you to know you are happy."

Sirius: *his unconciousness last for almost 3 hours before he finally blinked awake, groaning* Mmh...Where am I...? Ooh... *touches his head* Am I having a hangovr or something...?

Severus jumped up. "Sirius? Oh don't touch your head. You hit your head earlier."

Sirius: *he cringed a moment before opening his eyes to see Sev* Umm...Thanks but...who are you?

Severus heart dropped to his stomach. "Severus, your wife."

Sirius: Huh? My...My wife? Since wen was I married? Yeah, pull another one there, Severus or whoever u r

"Sirius." he started sobbing and ran out of the room. It couldn't be. His sirius was gone. He went running down the hall nearly tripping.

Paprika: *was abt to go upstairs when she saw Sev running. When he almost tripped, she quickly held him* Sev, luv! Wht's wrong? Is Master Black alright?!

"he things I was joking." he sobbed. "He doesn't remember me!"

Paprika: It's alright, it's alright *calms him dwn* Remember wht the doc said. Do things tht would make him remember. Give him time

"I..I.." His eyes rolled back in his head and he fainted.

Paprika: Sev! Severus!! Oh god, not u too *summons a random servant to help her carry him upstairs*

Severus had just fainted. The stress was just too much for him. Thankfully Paprika had been there.

The servant broke Severus back into the bedroom and laid him down on the bed. "I am sorry, My Lord. Master Severus just fainted."

Sirius: *raise a brow* OK, just...leave him there *he recognize everyone else, just not Sev, n he couldnt understand why were they fussing ovr him, who's a stranger to him*

Severus laid there, tear tracks on his cheeks. The servant had put his arms on his belly, which was very big.

Sirius: *sees the huge belly n felt a sort of tug at his heartstrings, bt he didn't knw why n couldnt recall anything* Is...Is he pregnant?

The servant nodded, putting the covers over him. "Your son is two months away." The servant smiled, nodded and let.

Sirius: *frowns a little n sat beside Sev, studying his features. In a way for him, it was like learning abt ur wife all ovr again. He ran his fingers, tracing along Sev's face, trying to get a feel to see if anything tht struck him familiar, bt unfortunately by far, the bulging belly was the only thing tht made a slight impact on him*

In his sleep Severus let out a little cry and a tear feel down his cheek. Severus reached out for Sirius and closed around his pants leg.

Sirius: *flinched a little at his touch, bt surprisingly evn to himself, he didn't hate it. In fact, he took tht hand n held it, caressing n trying to remember why was this so familiar yet so distant at the same time*

Severus slowly woke. He looked up at Sirius and smiled and leaned but for a kiss.

Sirius: *instinctively backed away frm the kiss* Um, hey, ur awake

Severus blinked before pulling back. "I am sorry to the bother you." He rubbed his eyes to keep from crying. "I need to go check on...something." He started to get out ofthe bed.

Sirius: *motor skills taking ovr, he grabs his sleeve* Wait. Pls. Dont go. Stay

"Please, My Lord." He said trying not to cry. "I am very busy."

Sirius: Pls. Just...stay. I...I want to talk...abt us *his voice a little pleading, desperate to try n make sense of all this*

Severus sniffed but kept his back to Sirius, but he didn't move away. "There is nothing about us. I was just joking when I said I was your wife."

Sirius: *his motor skills again taking ovr, his arms reached ard Sev, hugging him just exactly the same way as the old Sirius would* I...I dunno wht to make of it, but...if the child ur carrying is mine, then I guess u reli are my wife *places his face against the crook of his neck, just the way old Sirius did, as if his subconscious is trying to reach out to him*

Severus started crying. "It's not yours." He lied. "I just made you think it was so my baby would not be a born to a servant." In the split second that he had woke up to now he had come up with a stupid story that he was a servant. He would get a devorce and let Sirius live like he had never been there. His old Sirius was gone hand he didn't want to be around the new Sirius. The new sirius might think he was ugly and not want a thing to do with and he would not deal with that.

Sirius: Now hold up just a minute there *turns Sev to face him* I may not remember some things bt I am not stupid. I dunno why, bt something abt u tells me ur lying. Ur body language, ur voice, ur tone, whtever. N the servants just told me the child u r carrying is mine, n i knw for a fact my servants would nvr lie at my face. Now tell me the truth, am I married to u n the father of this child or not? *his eyes were determined, almost begging, for Sev to tell the truth, n there was the old Sirius in those eyes somehow*

Severus looked into his eyes and alsot saw the old Sirius. "We are married and this is your baby. I didn't want to putyou through this. You can't remember anything and I don't want you to suddenly reget anything." He wiped his eyes. "If you want a divorce I understand. I don't know how the old you delt with me."

Sirius: *frowns* Am I reli tht irresponsible? Am I tht of a jerk to begin with?

"No, no. Sirius. You love me, or you did. I jsut don't know if you still do."

Sirius: Well...I dont hate u, tht's for sure. Oddly enough, I feel...a sort of...attraction to u. I cant explain it, bt it's there somehow

"You...you do?" Severus sniffled again. "But it is not love is it?"

Sirius: It's... *places his hand on his heart* a little early to tell, bt one thing's for sure: I will not divorce u. U r my wife, so evn if it'll take forever, it's ur solemn duty to get my memory bk. Together in sickness n in health, get it? *had his hands on Sev's shoulders, felt almost like old Siri's touch*

Severus nodded. "The doctoer said that farmilar things could spark your memory...I know it not that common but when I wanted to get pregnant again I used a potion that...well." He had just been wearing a big robe that zipped up in the front. He unzipped it showing off his vagina. He blushed looking away.

Sirius: *a little taken aback at the sight of Sev's vagina* Woah...Tht's...interesting... *out of curiosity, though a little hesitant, his hand reaches dwn to touch the folds*

Severus whimpered a bit as he was touched, but it did not spark his momey, but maybe sex would. "Will touch me more? Sex may spark your memory." He said.

Sirius: Umm...OK *starts peeling the fold to reveal the clit n experimented by rubbing on it* D...Does this feel good?

Severus gripped the bed. "Yes." He moaned. "Can I have a kiss?" He asked.

Sirius: OK *leans ovr n kisses him gently, though a little awkward, bt as he continued to rub Sev, his kisses got better, sexual drive seeming to come in a little*

Severus kissed him back, closing his eyes, even as a tear ran down his cheek. "I will help you." He reached down to take Sirius out then leaned down to take him in his mouth.

Sirius: *sees him leaning dwn* H...Hey, take it easy, ur pregnant... *soon trailed off as he felt Sev's mouth ard his cock*

Severus bobed up and down. At least his cock remembed him. He sucked him until his cock was hard. "How do you want me?" He asked, licking his lips.

Sirius: Allow me *lays Sev on the bed, his lower half out of the bed, in which he picks up Sev's hips to wrap the legs ard his waist as he lubed himself up with Sev's juice* Dunno why, something inside me tells me I have been wanting to try this. I'm sorry if it bothers you...

"Anything you want, Sirius. I don't care." he grabbed the bed.

Sirius: Alright. Brace urself *held Sev's each side n entered him slowly before he started in a slow n steady rhythm*

"Yes!" Severus closed his eyes. "Please I need you. Not slow, fast!"

Sirius: A...Are u sure...? *still thrusting in the same speed* Wht abt the baby? Arent u a little close to due date?

"It's fine. The last month we will have to stop. He will be fine. Please, Sirius, I need it."

Sirius: Alright *held onto Sev's hips for leverage n started thrusting him faster n harder as he was allowed to, aiming for the G-spot*

"Oh god! Yes, right there!" He yelled as Sirius hit his spot. "Please, more. Master Fuck me!"

Sirius: ~Master?~ *tht word hit the bk of his mind. It was odd, bt somehow it seemed to fit, though right now his body is telling him to stop thinking n fuck tht pussy as he continued to jab at the G-spot*

"Oh...God. I'm gonna come." he panted, his hands had the new sheets in his hands. He thought of something then he made a quick moment as he came to rip the sheets.

Sirius: *the sound of the sheets ripping sounded familiar, bt he ignored it as being in the heat of the moment as he continued to jab him, his hand instinctively went dwn to rub his clit at the same time*

"Yes, yes. Oh God I'm....." His body clamped on Sirius as he came for the second time. "SIRIUS!" He riped the sheets even more.

Sirius: *the hard clamp on his cock made him lose it as his body seemed to have a mind of its own, pulling out n coming all ovr Sev's body*

Severus panted his body tired and slugish now. his eyes still closed.

Sirius: *lay dwn beside him* Wow, tht was some trip *sees the torn bedsheet* Something tells me u done this a lot

"You don't remember do you?" Severus sat up. "I need to clean up." he got up from the bed going to the bathroom for a shower.

Sirius: *took his hand gently* I...I'm sorry...Maybe...it'll take some more time

"I...I just can't do this. I feel like I am cheating on you. I know it sounds odd...I want my own bedroom. The one next door is the baby's."

Sirius: Cheating on me? But...But ur my wife, aren't u? Why would u want to sleep separately frm me?

"Because you are not my Sirius. You don't remember anything! I just...I can't do it. I can't." He ran from the room and slamed the bathroom door before getting into the shower.

Sirius: Severus... *cut short wen Sev slammed the door, then sighed n cleaned himself up n lay bk on the bed sadly*

Severus scrubbed Sirius come off his body. He was glad that he is not come inside. He shivered. He loved sirius with all his might but this was not his Sirius. IT just felt so wrong to find pleasure in his arms. It was like they were strangers. He couldn't keep a sob from coming out.

Sirius: *tried to wrack his brains thinking how to solve this. He knew everything abt Sev looked familiar to him, n he felt a sense of belonging with the baby, bt he just couldnt bring tht familiarity up a notch. He couldnt understand it*

Severus got through with his shower but he had forgotten his robe. He held up a towle and peaked out the door. "Could you bring me my robe?"

Sirius: Uh, yeah, sure *picks up the robe n passes it to him* U alright, Sev? *sees his red eyes*

Severus lowered his eyes and took the robe. "Yes." He closed the door and got the robe on. he then came out. "Sirius I will be in the baby's room for now. I need to be alone." He walked across the room.

Sirius: But... *tries to stop him again* If u want me to remember, shouldnt u be with me as much as possible?

"Just don't ask for sex. I can't do it." He looked up. ""

Sirius: Alright. I promise I won't. I'll do whtever else u want, just dont leave me alone...pls?

Severus nodded. "You need to get back in and bed and drink the medicen." He said. "And I need to redo your your bandages."

Sirius: *smiles* Yes, dear *goes ovr to take his medicine n waited for Sev to do his bandages*

Severus comes over and undid the bandages. HAs anyone told you how you were injured?

Sirius: No, not tht I knw of. How DID I get injured?

Severus bit his lip to keep from crying again. "Were had an argument. I told you to leave me along and pushed you away..but..." He covered his face. "You fell down the stairs. It is all my fault."

Sirius: Reli? Well...wht were we fighting abt?

"It was silly. I never should have done it." He hugged Sirius. "Forgive me, sirius. I never wanted to hurt you."

Sirius: *hugs him bk* I understand. It's OK. It's not ur fault. Ur pregnant. It entitles u to be a bit off the grid. I dont blame u for anything *stroke his back* It's OK, shh...

"I'm sorry." He kissed him. "I love you do much. I promise I will never hurt you again."

Sirius: *kisses him bk n peppered him with butterfly kisses all ovr his face* Shh, shh, shh... No more tears, Sev. No more tears. I'm alright now

Severus wiped his eyes. He finished banaging him up. He then laid down next to him. "Can you just say that you love me?" HE asked closing his eyes. "I don't care if you don't mean it. I just need to hear it."

Sirius: *smiles n brings him close to his chest, his lips near his ear* I love you, Sev. Forever and a day *same words old Siri said, in fact the voice tone almost sounded like him*

Severus smiled, snuggling close to him. "I love you to. Forever and always."

Sirius: *kissed his forehead n rocked him gently, lulling him to sleep*