Edge of Reason-A Marauders RP (Part 5)

Severus tossed and turned in his sleep until 3 in the morning then became still. He woke the next morning with a bad hang over.

Sirius: *was lying on Remus' bed waiting for James to be done with Remus n ended up falling asleep, n woke up in the morning frm Sev's groan*

"Dear god." He groaned sat up. "Oh."

Sirius: *rubs the sleep off his eyes* Hey there, Severus. I take it u didnt sleep so well huh?

"Uh?" he looked over and jumped. "What are you doing in Remus' bed." He rubbed his head. "Did I drink something bad yesterday?"

Sirius: Only everything tht is offered to u *chuckles* N yeah, I had to sleep here for the moment bcoz Prongs decided to get it dwn with Moons. No idea wht happened. Probably a phase. Anywho, u OK? Need something for the hangovr?

"Please. God I am never drinking again." he started to get out of bed. "Now I know why Father stops drinking when he passes out and starts when he wakes up."

Sirius: Drinking too much can do tht to ya *chuckles as he took out some hangovr tablets he kept wif him in case he had a hangovr n dropped them into a glass of cold water n passed the fizzing drink to Sev* Here ya go, drink it all in one go

Severus looked at it them drank it down. "Damn. That taste like chalk, on a good day."

Sirius: *laughed* It tastes more like water n salt to me. Feel better now?

"A little." he rubbed his head. He stagered to his feet and went to get some clothes.

Sirius: *had wanted to tell Sev abt last night, bt he didnt want to ruin the moment, n besides, he didnt seem like he remembered anything, so he decided to change the subject* Well, we hv abt 2 more days before we officially start classes. Any plans?

"Get my things together for each class. Then figure out the more effectent route to each one and how far they are from the dorms. The the hours of the dinning hall and verious others."

Sirius: Busy bee, aint ya? I'll probably do the same thing as well, bt first I'm gonna hv to go get Kromagg robes

"We have to have robes? Shit."

Sirius: Well, its always been tht way for non-private colleges. We can wear whatever we want underneath bt we must don the college robes. Wanna go get some?

"No. I have a lot to do. Don't worry about me." he went to the bathroom with his clothes to change.

Sirius: *pouted a little. He was hoping they could go together to get the robes, n maybe have some alone time together, bt he shrugged n called out to the bathroom* I'll be ard if u need me *turns to his dorm n knocked on the door*

Remus: *stirred awake frm the knocking* Mmh...? Wha...?

James groaned. "Five more minutes/"

Sirius: *hollered behind the door* Oi! U done? Its my room too, u knw!

Remus: *was the one who got off the bed* Sorry. I'm leaving now *cleaned himself up with a spell n got dressed*

"Ah, Moony. Come back. He can come in." James didn't even open his eye.

Remus: No, I've intruded enough. I...got things to do too. Cya later, Prongs *got himself fully dressed, a little awkward as he left* Hey, Paddy. Room's all urs *made a dash to his dorm, his face as red as a tomato*

Sirius: *raised a brow as he left before entering the room* So, Prongs. Care to explain why ur suddenly banging Moons now?

James pulled the covers over his head. "'Cause I want too. He was pretty good last night."

Sirius: Uh-huh. Wht? The birds aint good enough for u anymore? Or issit a phase to get ovr Lily?

"I don't know, Pads. What I do know it that I like being with Remus, ok? Now drop it." He went silcent.

Sirius: *rolled his eyes* Well, tht's exactly how I feel for Severus, so if u drop it, I'll drop mine, k? *yawned n fell onto his bed, getting bk to sleep as he hadnt had enough last night*

Severus finished dressing and came out of the bathroom to find Remus in the bedroom. "What happened to you?"

Remus: *was curled up in bed looking like he had been embarassed something fierce* Huh? Oh...um...its nothing...

Severus shook his head. "I'm off. I have a lot of things to do today. Want to have lunch later one?"

Remus: Um...yeah, sure. Why not? I need to do some stuff as well. Meet ya at the cafeteria?

"Yeah." Severus got a his money and headed off to go talk to Lucius.

Lucius: *was leaning abt at the college building entrance talking to Crabbe n Goyle wen he saw Sev came up* Ah, look who decided to show up

"Oh Lucius. I don't know what happened at the party last night. I don't remember anything. If I embarrassed you I am very sorry."

Lucius: *raised a brow, then exchanged glances with Crabbe n Goyle* Reli now? Its perfectly alright. U've done nothing wrong. We were just...chatting each other up wen ur friend decided it was time to leave. He's rather...unsociable, is he not? Not surprising for a Black, tho

"Oh, please accept my appologies on his behalf. I will see that he never does that again." Severus didn't want to lose a friend before he even really got it.

Lucius: Dont worry. I've let bygones be bygones. I heard frm my girl he was the black sheep of the family anyways. No offence taken. So where ur off to?

"Actually to talk to you. I heard we have to have robes. Does you friend sell them in in his store?"

Lucius: Ah, yes, tht would be at the clothes section of Secondhand Wonders. I'll take u there, if u like

"Yes please." he nodded.

Lucius: *led him bk to the shop n took him upstairs to where the clothes section was* Hey, Lestrange. Get this young 'un a robe, will ya? N make sure they r ones with no holes this time

Lestrange looked like he was so bored. He rolled his eyes but nodded and went to get some.

"Thank you again, Lucius. What can I do to repay you?"

Lucius: Well, there is one thing u can do *took his hand n led him into one of the changing rooms, then started pushing him against the wall n feeling him up*

Severus was taken back, this seemed formaler but nothing was popping up. "Lucius...what are you doing."

Lucius: Asking for my payment, of course. U didnt think tht I would actually let good deeds go unpunished now, dont u? *grins as he licked his lips* God, u look so hot being all scared n bothered like tht. Just like last night

"What?" He asked and tried to pushed him away. "Lucius, please."

Lucius: *pins Sev's hands against the mirror as he licked his neck, rubbing his crotch against Sev's* Mmm, damn, for a ugly bugger like u, u sure got some goods behind tht pants of urs

"Lucius please, stop. your hurting me."

Lucius: Shut up, bitch, n stay still. U wanna repay me, this is the only way ur evr capable of doing *so saying, he took himself out, whispered just enough lube only for himself before magicking Sev's pants away n shoved himself into him with one hard thrust*

Severus cried out. "Please, it hurts." he sobbed. "Lucius."

Lucius: *ignores his cries as he literally fucked him, banging him against the mirror* Mmh, yes...So tight...!! Yeah, take tht, u bitch

Severus sobbed against the wall, his body feeling so much in pain. he thought about sirius and Remus. Did they think the same. He knew he would never be anything in Sirius eyes.

Lucius: *gave last few thrusts reli hard, fast n deep before he bit dwn on Sev's shoulder, muffling his groan as he came inside Sev, filling the young man up*

Severus didn't stop sobbing. Could it be over and done with? He felt so dirty.

Lucius: *thrusts some more to milk himself out more before he pulls out* Mmh, u got a great ass. Maybe I should do more favours, then u can repay me again like this, eh?

"Just get me my robes and I will be going. Please." Severus shakly pulled his pants up to cover up come.

Lucius: Ur no fun, arent u, Snivellus? *rolled his eyes n pulled aside the curtain of the changing room* Oi, Lestrange. U got the robes already?

"Right on the desk." Lestrange said.

Severus wipped his face. "How much."

Lucius: *chked the price n told him before handing the robe to him* Seriously tho, Snivellus. Dont u wanna try it again? Ur more suited in this lifestyle *laughs cruelly*

Severus paid him and walked out with his robes. Severus made it to his room and threw the robes on the bed and took out his last change of clothes and rummaged through his toletres.

Remus: *had just come bk frm buying some last minute books n stationeries, n as soon as he entered the room, a certain smell seemed to permeate the air* Wht the...?

Severus grabbed Remus shampoo and ran to the bathroom, locking the door, leaving his old clothes, that had some come and blood mixed into it.

Remus: *was surprised Sev had zoomed past him, bt the smell still lingered in the room. He sniffed abt n found tht it was on Sev's old clothes. He picked up one n could smell the come with hint of blood in it* Oh no...

Severus turned the water on and got in the shower. Hoe could someone he trusted hurt him so badly. Where all wizards like this? Befriending new people then raping them. He sunk to the bottom of the shower and sobbed.

Remus: *his heart ached at the thought of wht Sev must've been thru. To set foot out of home to be treated like this. He promised to himself tht whoevr did this will pay. He had the smell in his memory now n wen he has the chance, he will track him dwn, bt right now, his new friend needed some comfort*

After a long shower Severus came out, in his last set of clothes. he set Remus shampoo back and his stuff back then laid on the bed, shoving his robes on the floor. he shouldn 't have bought them.

Remus: *sat at his bed watching Sev going abt, collecting himself before asking* Forgive me if I'm being blunt bt...u were raped, werent u?

Severus flinched. "Go away. I don't need your pity." He said.

Remus: I'm not, n this is my room as well, so I'm not going away tht easily. If ur wondering, I found out by picking up ur scent on ur old clothes

"I do not wish to be your friend any more. So kindly leave me alone. Thank you." he turned to the wall.

Remus: *stared at him in silence for a while before sighing* If u wont talk to me, then u could try talking to Paddy. I'm sure he'll be more than willing to listen. I'm just suggesting though *lay bk on the bed n proceeded to browse thru his text books*

"I don't need anything." He said.

Remus: I'm just saying *returning to his books*

Severus sighed and looked at his wall.

James woke up and streached. he looked around not remembering Remus getting up and leaving. "Remy?"

Sirius: *was a little awake aftr having tht extra sleep n was just lazing abt* Moons is gone bk to his room, Prongs. U missed him

"Damn." James got up and started getting dressed. "We still need to get our supplies." he yawned again. "I am going to go see Remus then want to get lunch and the stuff?" he asked.

Sirius: Naw, u go ahead first. I'm just gonna hang for a while, enjoy the lazing abt. I'll join ya at dinner tho

"Ok." He went into the other room and pulled Remus chin up for a kiss.

Remus: *was surprised tht James had come in, bt was evn surprised tht James had kissed him out of the blue* P-P-Prongs! N...Not in front of... *his eyes darted at Sev who was facing the wall*

"He has his back to us." James said. "You think I fuck and run?" James kissed him again. "Come with me to get my books. Seems you already have."

Remus: Well...OK, if u insist *takes one last look at Sev before getting off the bed to follow James behind*

James smiled and took his hand pulling him out of the room.

Severus sighed, he didn't have the engery or will to get up and close the door.

Sirius: *lazed ard for a while, then remembered tht he had left his smokes at Remus' plc last night. He got up n went to the room, only to see Severus there facing the wall* Oh hey, sorry. I didnt knw anyone was in the room

Severus flinched and his heart sank. If Sirius wanted to do like Lucius did he had no power to stop. So he acted like he was sleeping.

Sirius: *frm the lack of reply, he assumed tht Sev was sleeping. Sighed sadly n sat on Remus' bed, just staring at him before slowly talking to the "sleeping" Sev* Wht a night last night, huh? James starting to date Prongs all of a sudden, n then u almost get hooked up with tht Malfoy guy. Boy, wen he tried to feel u up, he was lucky to still hv his balls wen I showed up, or ur virginity would've been a goner last night. James was right; he is a dirty rat who shags everything tht moves. No wonder James said to be careful with him

James said that? How? Severus thought he hated him. Sirius should have told them that before he was taken agianst hist will. Severus bit his lip not to cry.

Sirius: *chuckles* Thank goodness ur not awake or u'd probably stake me for not telling u abt last night, bt...I just didnt want u to feel scared or lost ur self worth or kick urself abt this. I wanted to protect u. U seemed to hv enough troubles as it is. If I told u wht Malfoy had done to u last night, I was afraid...tht u'd be afraid to be friends with us or be close to us. Silly thought, eh?

Severus shoulder shook just a bit, but not enough to really notice.

Sirius: Well...all I'm trying to say is tht...I like u. A lot. I usually dont fall for ppl at first sight bt...u intrigue me. U...made a mark on my heart the moment I saw u. I cant explain it. It just...happened. N I will protect u, evn if it means frm urself

The tears were falling from his eyes. He pulled himself tighter around his middle to try to hold himself.

Sirius: *wondered whether it would be right to just touch Sev a little. Since he was "sleeping", why not? He came up to the bed n sat beside him, then slowly n gently, stroke the young man's hair, caressing it in an almost comforting manner*

It was much like when his mother comforted him, but it was loving touch of a male hand. Not the harshness of his father's callus hands or the strength of Lucius hands as he held him, fucking him. What made him turn around and grab him but he did. He sobbed into Sirius stomach. "It hurt so much. I begged him to stop but he didn't. He laughed and said I was suited to that lifestyle."

Sirius: *was surprised to find out Sev was actually awake wen Sev turned ard n hugged him, bt a lump grew in his throat as he heard wht Sev said* He...He raped u...? H...How...? When...?

"He helped me out before with my books so I went to him to get my robes for cheap. But I can't look at them." The robes where still on the floor. "I just keep seeing his eyes filled with lust." He started sobbing harder where he could not even talk.

Sirius: *glared at the robes with a vengeance, then stood up abruptly, picked up the robes n opened the window, setting the robes on fire before throwing them out of the window with a loud yell* ARGH! TAKE THAT, U FUCKING ASSHOLE!! *turns to Sev* S...Sorry...U want me to go castrate him? I can do it

"No. I don't want you to get in trouble. Can you just hold me. I like you comfort."

Sirius: *sighs, bt made a mental note to handle Lucius later* Alright, if u say so *sat dwn n held Sev close, stroking his bk to comfort him*

Severus laid his head down on Sirius and closed his eyes. He was so tired but he still had too much adrenaline going through his body.

Sirius: I'm sorry. I should've been there. I should've accompanied u to get ur robes just now

"You couldn't have known what I was doing. It is not your fault. It was mine for trusting too easily."

Sirius: Trust is not a bad thing, Sev. U just need a little training in who to trust, is all. Bt it still doesnt make me feel better tht I wasnt there for u

"You can help me get newer robes. I may not be able to get as many but I can't go back to get the cheap one." Severus snuggled closing. This felt so good. "What else happened last night that you didn't tell me?"

Sirius: I'll most definitely get it for u. And...well *scratched his chin* Well u kinda confessed to me tht u liked me and...we sorta kissed... *blushed*

Severus blushed and hide his head. "I can't believe that. I hate alcohol."

Sirius: U almost wanted to come onto me, like u wanted to have sex with me or something, bt thank goodness I had my hormones in chk *chuckles as Sev hid his head* Aww, dont worry. I've done worse things when I was drunk

"That does not make be feel better. I never act like that when I am sober. I am in complete contorl of my emotions."

Sirius: Maybe too much in control. Letting loose for a while doesnt hurt, though its probably tht calm, collected nature u hv tht drew me in * caressed Sev's hair*

"Still." He sighed. "I do...like you...very much. But...I don't know if you really like me for me or because you want to have intedrcouse with me."

Sirius: I always take it slow. I nvr rush into things n do things u dont want to unless ur ready. I'm not like tht Malfoy bastard. I like u for u, honest

Severus sighed. "I still am not sure. I have never been around another wizard in my life. It is very frightening."

Sirius: Dont worry, Severus. I knw its not easy for u, since u've been homeschooled all ur life. I'll be gentle with u

"Please tell me you are taking about something other then sex."

Sirius: *grins* I'm talking abt every aspect, not just sex. Like I said, I wont do anything ur not ready or dont want to

Severus nodded. "Thank you, Sirius. It means a lot that you would call me your friend."

Sirius: And I'm honoured to be your friend. Now would u like me to go get ur robe myself or do u wanna come along with me?

"I can go. Just give me some time to rest. It still hurts to move much."

Sirius: Alright. I understand *still held him, comforting him with his gentle strokes on his head n back*